Don't Wake Me Up

Just give me one night to cry

Before I lose my mind

I can't pretend any longer

Everything's not fine

Cuz tomorrow will come

So just let me get drunk

On this misery that's weighing me down

Get intoxicated

Drink all the sadness

Daze off in vapors of nothingness...

Don't wake me up

I've been thinkin way too much

Don't wake me up

I'm not ready happiness

I've been hurting way too much

Don't wake me up

Sunlight reaches out for me

But I can't feel it's touch

I need to feel all this pain

Don't turn off the darkness

Cuz I've become numb

Holding in the anger

I just need to get it out to calm down

Sob out bad memories

Safe here in hiding

Empty out a space for some bliss

Don't wake me up

I've been thinkin way too much

Don't wake me up

I'm not ready happiness

I've been hurting way too much

Don't wake me up

If I'm numb

How can I feel happy?

I need to get bitter to stay sweet

So Don't wake me up...

Don't wake me up

I've been thinkin way too much

Don't wake me up

I'm not ready happiness

I've been hurting way too much

Don't wake me up

These past two years or so have been very emotional for me.I've been doing a lot of soul searching and have gone through a lot of personal growth, learning my reasons to be alive. The more I tried to just stay busy and forget about the pain, the more I noticed it would just come back and manifest itself in my life in other ways and the pain would never quite go away. I was so afraid if I let myself be mad or really cry, I would never stop. But I just kept becoming more and more numb to happiness. I finally realized I had to allow myself to get angry, cry the tears and feel the sorrow, many times. I started to slowly feel better and better a little at a time.

So I wrote this song with hopes that anyone who hears it will be comforted and it will help them to heal. Feel everything, because that means YOU'RE ALIVE. Feel the pain all the way and tomorrow you'll be able to feel the happiness ten times more...

~LisaBB